It had been such a long time since we haven’t talk. I never bothered calling you or sending you any message. I chose and prefer that way because whenever we talk or chat, we always end up arguing. I know your hurt with the words that I uttered last time, you know me, when I get angry, I totally lose control and most often say words that are not meant to be said.
I could not remember when was the last time I had laugh and share stories with you. I could not even remember when was the last time I hug you and told you I love you, nanay. It’s been such a long time I guess, coz I often disregard you and I don’t appreciate you. I could not imagine how I let this happen to us. I am missing you, mom, how I long to share my stuffs with you, how I long to share what happened to me at school, my dreams and my feelings. How I long that you comb my hair even if I am a big girl now.
You know what, I really want to apologize mom. It was disrespectful of me to answer you back. You were right, I don’t have any right to say such things to you coz I never been into your situation. Living and working alone, far away from us is something that I should consider. You take it all, just to provide for us, not to mention that you are old enough to work. I know mom, you are having hard times there, you always told me, “madami ka ng nararamdaman pero ngtratrabaho ka pa din”, just to provide for us, but I never took it by heart. What I am good at is to ask for money and material things.
Funny it is that you only received letters from me during Mother’s day. Do I still need for mother’s day just to apologized and tell you I love you? I am so proud of you, Mom. Thank you for your patience and sacrifices. People don’t know how much you have been a good mother to us. I love you, Mom!