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This post is about MYSELF! — September 16, 2012

This post is about MYSELF!

So this is still a part of my postaday challenge! I’m thinking of writing something so useful but on these times, I think my momentum is not so good so I’ll just ramble here whatever words will come up my mind.

Last time I wrote here something about Love and it was really one of the lamest entry I ever WRITTEN. Yeah, since I blamed love with all the things that happen to me where in fact I myself was the one to be blame. I just can’t really understand love sometimes, it’s quite complicated or I’m the only one who makes thing so complicated? Anyway, that issue was now settled and as you can see I think I’m feeling good now, (giving you a hint: I get my love back!) 🙂 That’s one of the good news. Maybe some other people think I’m pathetic, but I’m inlove and I don’t know what’s pathetic in loving, getting back your love even though it hurts, I conclude now that Hurting is part of process in loving, It’s something not to be feared of,or it’s not something to be frustrated of, coz after the storm, you learn from it and it makes you a better and stronger person. Continue reading

Questions End Marks — February 5, 2012

Questions End Marks

FEBRUARY 4, 2012 (FROM http://www.inboxjournal.com/publicjournal.php )

I am not in the mood to write, I even feel like not doing anything today. But I have to keep myself busy,well, that’s my plan so that I won’t be drowned with my own emotions. I have to block all the negative feelings, I have to go away with my own hassles in life. I have to do this or else everyday will be a trouble day for me and I won’t let that happen, I wont let my emotions eat me and corrupt all the positive vibes that Ill be having all through out the day.

Life is full of twists and turns isn’t it.? Life doesnt provide us with everyday happiness, sometimes there are things that were meant to happen to teach us lessons. Lessons through experiences, and those lessons will always be our guide to do the right thing the next time we are faced into a similar situation. Dramas are the best ingredients to human life. It brings us the different kind of taste, something unexplainable but worth it. You might never understand what I am blogging here, Am I making a sense to you either? (lol) Actually I dont know..

People are unpredictable, am I right? Some might be good and some might be evil in nature. How far should we trust people? Lets say someone stranger offers you a helping hand, would you trust him that he wont let you fall and he wont let you down when rough times come? How easy do you trust people? Does it depends on the number of years knowing each other? If yes, then why do other people end up pulling each others feet down after being best of friends for six years in time? Why do lovers break up and obliterate each other trust after spending years and years od being together? And why other people can trust someone whom they only knew and met in a minutes time but yet they click together like forever????? Why? Can somebody explain why people had this kind of erratic ATTITUDE towards trust?

IF Love is patient, love is kind. IF It does not envy, it does not boast, IF it is not proud, IF It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, IF it is not easily angered, IF it keeps no record of wrongs, IF Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. IF It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres, WHO WILL LOVE US THE WAY LOVE WAS DEFINED ABOVE? Yes try to tell me, only God can, and I will understand. What I am seeking and asking here is can’t us people love the same way like god is loving us? Cant we be patient, be kind, be not envious, be not boastful, be not rude, be not proud, be not self seeking, be not angered. Cant we people keep no records of wrong but learned to be forgiving? Cant we rejoice in God hand and right truth. Cant we protect, TRUST, HOPE and persevere to achieved the meaning of LOVE, TO OUR PARENTS, TO OUR FAMILY, FRIENDS,LOVE ONES AND TO THOSE STRANGERS WHO MIGHT BE IN NEED AND WHO NEED TO FEEL THE TRUE MEANING OF LOVE?

I guess the circumstances that I am facing right now is an indication, a wke up call for me, to know and to seek for the true meaning of love, not only as a lover of a single soul but a lover for all mankind. I guess writing this one is done with a purpose, I am encouraging you not to focus loving a sigle soul alone, but let us love ourself too and others. Love is not only felt when we are into a boyfriend-girlfriend relationship, Love is not only felt when we are with our friends, with our family, Love is felt when like God, we love all the people around us. It’s a great feeling and its a great Lesson I have learnt.

I want to be Good! — November 5, 2011

I want to be Good!

Lately, I have been battling with my own thoughts. Whenever I want to be a good person, Evil hinders my way. Whenever I wanted to change, to become as good like god, temptations get even closer to me. This thing keeps me disappointed and it leads me to the idea that I will never do good.

Just few days back, I had a chance to talked with god like the way we used to be before. Okay, lemme explain, I had few encounters with god wherein we talk heart to heart. In silence, I just say what’s in my heart, what’s in my thoughts and when I am in deep concentration I feel his presence. Sometimes I felt it’s a one way communication but afterwards I hear god’s responds in right time.

I was there facing the sacred heart of jesus all alone, and I promised him that I will do good and be like him. Resist all Evil. I am doing this not because I am worried of how people will see me, but because I want my existence to be more meaningful. Day by day I tried hard to be good, to be like him, in a bigger or simplier way. I offered my hands to help and I must say that each day was a fulfilling one. Yet, there’s no end of a day that I give in to evil. Its a constant battle between me being good and evil.

Yesterday, I found myself giving up. I can’t never be good as god. That is why I went to his place and prayed. I asked God how to be like him? How could I bare no grudge and anger with people who throw stone at me, hit me and bring me down? How can I ignore them? How can I say no words at all, when somebody speaks bad at me? How can I sacrifice my own good for others? How can I be content? How can I be like him?

God still remain silent. I was waiting for the right time to come when all my questions will be answered. For the mean while I continously struggle to do good all the time.